November 13th, 2007
My voice has been gone since Saturday and I just now realized/remembered that this is a periodic necessity in times of stress, for God to arrest me and remind me that I am allowing life to overwhelm me.
When I lose my voice, I become isolated (yes, even in a large family) as no one engages me in conversation and all the time spent in bed separates me even more. Then after a few (okay, this time it took 4) days of cleansing out all the backed up stuff (worry about $, work, school) I can finally reap the benefits of my induced vow of silence. And what I find is REST — a release from all that I was carrying, as I once again find myself living in the moment where all my needs are met, my family is safe and I am happy. Hmm…no wonder priests have been doing this for centuries.
At this present moment, I have no concerns about what has happened or didn’t happen, no concerns about what is coming or needs to be done. In the midst of a huge to do (not to mention laundry) pile and God knows what awaits me when I venture out of bed (for the record, my children are very responsible, but they are still children and imagine what the house looks like when Mom has been in bed all weekend), I am once again at peace.
As I write this, I am in bed, surrounded by all the necessities — my journal, my Bible
, Experiencing God : Knowing and Doing His Will - Workbook
, the latest issue of Wired 
, my iPhone and MacBook. And I’m suddenly inspired to tackle a work project…how very wabi sabi 
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Taking a break for All Natural Mashti Malone’s Lavender Ice Cream.
